SMITH

KILLED KIDS TO SAVE THEM FROM BEING ORPHANS: The handwritten confession that led to the arrest ofSusan Smith-- the South Carolina mom accused of killing her two sons and faking a carjacking and kidnapping -- was released today. Smith writes that she felt she was a bad mother, "but I didn't want my children to grow up without a mom. I felt I had to end our lives to protect us all from any grief or harm." On the night of the alleged murders, Smith writes, "I had never felt so scared and unsure as I did then. I wanted to end my life so bad and was in my car ready to go down that ramp into the water, and I did go part way, but I stopped. I went again and stopped. I then got out of the car and stood by the car a nervous wreck." She adds that after she allowed the car to roll down a boat ramp into the water, "I took off running and screaming "Oh God! Oh God, no!" ... I wanted to turn around so bad and go back, but I knew it was too late. I was an absolute mental case! I couldn't believe what I had done." When she broke down and confessed to the police she says she "felt like the world was lifted off my shoulders." She adds that "I am sorry (underlined) for what has happened and I know that I need some help."Post your opinion on theCrimebulletin board.