The War On Suicide?

More U.S. Soldiers Have Killed Themselves Than Have Died In The Afghan War. Why Can't The Army Win The War On Suicide?

Peter van Agtmael/Magnum for TIME

Grand Praire, TX. Rebecca Morrison with some of her husband Ian's belongings in her parents homes. Ian, an AH-64 Apache Helicopter pilot in the U.S. Army committed suicide on March 21, 2012. Ian chose 'Ike' for Rebecca.

Leslie McCaddon sensed that the enemy had returned when she overheard her husband on the phone with their 8-year-old daughter. "Do me a favor," he told the little girl. "Give your mommy a hug and tell her that I love her."

She knew for certain when she got his message a few minutes later. "This is the hardest e-mail I've ever written," Dr. Michael McCaddon wrote. "Please always tell my children how much I love them, and most importantly, never, ever let them find out how I died ... I love you. Mike"

She grabbed a phone, sounded every alarm, but...

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